Last day of August 2013

Today’s one of those days.

It has been one of those days for a while now.

Not necessarily a bad day, and yet not a great one either.

Just one of those days – empty, quiet, meaningless.

And I hate that because, I hate wasting days.

I feel guilty for not making the most of these days, because somewhere, someone is fighting his/her last breath to see this very day that I just wasted.

But it’s one of those days when you wonder why you even got up in the first place.

Breakfast was not spectacular and very forgettable. I already forgot what I ate.

One of those days when every joke you hear seem rather stupid or insensitive

When every other person seems to be in love or having a good time

And that doesn’t necessarily piss you off, but doesn’t brighten your mood either

Work, as usual humdrum, which amazingly enough is the most normal feeling of the day

Even the fact that today’s a Friday couldn’t cheer me up, and that has always done the trick in the past.

So maybe I’m not happy?

But I’m not sad either, nor angry – in fact, I feel pretty calm.

Maybe I’m finally having a grasp on what life’s supposed to be.

Maybe all this time, I’ve been living in a bubble where life only has its lows and highs

I’ve always been either happy or sad, more happy than sad.

I have always made it a point to be happy, to stay positive

But for today, for a while now – I can’t seem to find the strength to even try!

So tonight, I’m going to let myself be numb, be calm and let myself think about life

And then pray.

Today’s one of those days.