A Tale of Two Continents

There's this calmness about us, about you.
I love the mutual love of silence.
The fact that not every day or everything requires words
And yet the comfort in knowing that our feelings thrive anyway
I never thought I was meant for this, still don't at times
And yet here I am promising nothing and yet planning forever

But I hope you remember that
Trust is a commodity my heart refuses to splurge on
It isn't a worthy reason but sometimes
I blame the occurrences of my yesterdays
The heartaches & the disappointments
As much as I try to not let is scar my todays,
I guess a part of that brightness & naivety gets shattered
So with every little hope getting squashed or every disappointment,
The famous defensive wall comes up

I hate this wall!
And eventually I will have control over it,
Slowly but surely and hopefully with you around
It isn't because I am insecure about us.

Unfortunately, I have met pain face to face, heart to heart
It is a very unkind guest & almost always overstay its welcome.

Normally I am courageous & bold enough
To face hardships on my own
Except when it comes to matters of the heart.
That's where I draw the line
Because I have learnt that as much as love brightens up the world
It doesn't always behave
I could and can outlive it and I will survive it
But when it is done with you,
It leaves you sharper, more bitter;
More cautious and more cynical & doubtful
Those are things I can very well do without.

I am not saying you will invite it back,
Because you have the kindest, warmest heart I know
That precisely is why I am here again
On my way to trust again, to be vulnerable,
To depend & to love another being as much as I do myself
I do not expect or request the same of you
But I do ask of your patience
Its not always easy to stay in love with a person
Whilst feeling you are walking on eggshells

But you aren't, cause as fragile & cautious as my heart is,
You can always open up to me, To us
After all that's said and done,
It is you and I still standing
Beating the odds together ever since

Our forever's aren't ephemeral
Our faith not  mortal
Our love divine and pure
Even though we are far from faultless,
We have our Father himself as part of what we've created and started,
I believe we could and we will withstand the test of time

Here's to us,
Here's to Love
Here's to laughter, hope & a little bit of craziness!